I am surprised about how people are running away from me when I tell them about my ADHD. It is like they Believe that I have a nasty mad-cow or ebola desease that is going to jump on them.
I am constantly hear that people like us have two options in life. End up in jail or become a drugaddict that lives on benefits. I want to prove you wrong. We are not criminals. We are just people with a special superpowers who are constantly hunted by society who want to cut of our special superpowerwings with a chainsaw. Just so we can come down to earth and walk together side by side with the others.
I love my Ferrari super Power wings. They make me superfast and super productive. So superfast that people very often cant catch up with me. But there are days when I hate them to. They are just to big that I very often can´t walk through normal doors like the other people. The wings are so big so they become in the way instead.
It all started in junior school. I was a fast learner and good in many subjects. But there was a speedlimit of how fast you were aloud to drive. My superfast ferrari wings was not aloud to take out it´s full speedpotential. I was put in a small box and my engine slowly rutten away. I gave up hope about life and school. The engine have been destroyed in pieces made by the social constructed speedrules.
People like us have much more emotions than the normal people.
When we like someone, we love them.
When we are sad we are devastaded.
When we unlike something, we hate it.
We are just people with much emotions. It is like we have this HUGE gas tank that can be filled up with alot of gas, so much gas that we can go far much further than many people. We just go…and go…and keep on going.
People often misstake us for being immature in social events. We are not immature or unproffesional, we just have so much energy that we dont know where to put it even if we do our best to try.
Life is not a dance on roses when you have this letters. It cause many problems for us in life. But every mistake we do we learn from them.
When we want something realley bad, we are unstoppable. Nothing can come in our way. But we also need help from you guys. From you who are just so perfectly normal with normal sized wings whobeasily fit in to that little space in the box that society have giving us. Yelling at us is not going to help us in any way. Try to see how our superbig superpower wings are constructed instead of seeing the problem with us, that we cant fit in to that box. Mayby by help us to build a bigger box, so that we can fit in it.
I just went through a very bad phase recently. I lost my fulltime job after my ADHD went public at work and my biggest dream were about to being crushed. The Greenland-dream. I could not for the world understand what was and is wrong with me. I had two jobs and worked realley hard to save up to pay the rest of the trip meanwhile I was “getting my shit together” in private life. Until the day when the bomb was dropped. Nearly all my savings had go to of being unempoloyed. Now I have found an other job that I will start on in one week. And I see brighter light for the future, even if I have along way to go.
We ADHD people have the best gift of them all. We are very creative. Our brain is constantly working 24/7. 365 days a year. Day and night. It is thinking often, and produce ideas that one one will ever been thinking before. We are excellent problem resolvers.
So when my Greenland dream nearley were about to been crusched in to small pieces, I started to sketch up ideas of how I dont loose the grip of it. When we ADHD people have a dream, we go for it so badly, and we go for it so hard that not a nuclear attach could crush it.
We suck with money. Seriously.. I bought this saving-pig I can’t open unless I have this special construcer-worker scissor. My savings are in there. I know I cant have savingmoney on the bank because I will spend it. In Sweden we get a penny for every empty soda bottles that we recycle. So while I was unemployed I started to raid all the bins along the streets, treasurehunting for empty bottles. Mostly I did this in the night so no one would see me.
I told this to a person I knew. The response I got was that I have been sinking to low. It is only homeless people who are hunting for bottles in the bins.
I do not care. At least I am working towards my dream, and it is going very well. Soon I am back on track. While this person is talking behind my back, satisfied with life as it is, I am out there chasing my dream. So my treasurehunting for empty bottles have helped me to get back on track and my Greenlandtrip is now back as planned.. It is a very time consuming creative solution that takes alot of energy. But my dream is stronger so I know I will win over this obstacle. It bring me one step closer. As long as I keep in my motto that I should never give up. So far my bottlehuntig have gave me 20% of the money I lost that was ment to pay for the rest of the trip. I have alreadey payed a part of it. Now I have until august to find the rest of the 80%.
All solutions are aloud as long as it is not illegal. The memory will last forever.
ADHD people are unstoppable when it comes to something that they realley want.
Even if I failed my junior school, and it took me 5 years to complete high school I know I can look back at my life and be satisfied. My lettercombination have brought me so much memories that I will carry with me for the rest of my life. Memories that no one else would have done.
I am 24 year old and been coming far in life.
Everytime I am sad I am looking at my list of accomplishments and then I am back on track.
– At age 13 I started a youth party in my home town and was later elected as the chair headman. I had to bring in members over 18 so they could represent the party in the City Council meetings because I was to young.
– At age 15 I alreadey worked at weekends as a DJ.
– At age 17 I ran my own summer coffeeshop that was specialized in vegan sweets. I also toured around Sweden and Norway with Greenpeace.
– At age 19 I did a 4 weeks internship at Svalbard. Cold, icebears and realley dark.
– At age 20 I alreadey had a job during high school.
– Age 21, I am visiting countries that most people in western are afraid to. I went alone for a vacationtrip to Kosovo.
– Age 22, I moved abroad, living in a foreign country.
– Age 24, planning on how to get my Greenlanddream to come true.
– By age 40, I should have been taking over the world….naah…at least been to the northpole
So thank you ADHD for all the problem that you have caused me, so that I can grow from my mistakes and make bigger, greater and better things. I love you, and I hate you.
Xoxo / your hyper energeric little bear